It’s interesting that change happens all at once. Is that they way it is for everyone else? It certainly is for me and Seth. I guess that is just the way we work! But by now, you think we would be expecting it…
One of my favorite quotes is from a super cheesy movie, Kate and Leopold. Now that I think about it, I bet they stole the quote from someone else, but for right now, I am going to go with the movie starring Hugh Jackman:
“Good things take time, but great things happen all at once” (I had the urge to cite this…that’s how I know I have been in grad school for too long already 🙂 )
I know, its a good one right? But it really encapsulates what I am feeling. Of course there are the “ohcrapwhattheheckarewedoing??” kind of days mixed in with the “great things” days, and that is to be expected. But overall, I am so grateful with how God has been blessing us for the past few months. I feel like he has been meeting me exactly where I am at, lately.
I have come to him with my needs – and in my eyes at times they seemed so insurmountable. But he has taken each one and said, “I know…I understand, MY child…I know what you what and what you need and I will bring it to you in my timing, but in a way that you will know who is the bestower of these gifts”.
The gifts have been many but one of the most special has been a house…God has given us a house! It has been such a hard road to walk to get to this point, that now, it almost seems unreal. While I have loved my apartment for the past two years, I have been feeling the urge to move on for the past 6 months, at least. At the turn of the year, being here was SO difficult. Working from home, doing school work, and living with a man and a cat in an apartment comprised of 600 square feet has not been easy. I felt like I was dying. I felt stifled in my work and my academics. And it was not too easy on my marriage either. Even Turbo suffered! Well, probably not, but I was suffering so much I am sure she got some of it.
And low and behold – the Lord provides. But the funny thing is with the house, he met my needs AND my desires. I am the proud soon-to-owner of a HUGE backyard. I never knew I wanted something as glorious and wonderful as it is – and let me tell you…IT IS!
With this new season of living arrangements, I have been really coming to grips with a lot about myself, and my world, and my call. I think I might be becoming a hippie. Like…for reals….a hippie. My sister-in-law would be so proud of this statement, but it’s true. I have been so challenged lately by how I am connected to the things around me, like my computer, my phone, my tv, etc, and how surprisingly less connected I am with other things, like the earth, my friends, and myself. I have had these urges…these really strong urges…to garden. To grow things. To get dirty in the earth and watch something new spring forth. It’s weird, but I feel like a garden might represent who I am right now and who I am becoming. Through school, and life, and church, that God has been planting me…waiting for me to spring forth. He’s patiently tilled over my heart, planted the seeds of love and faith and justice and passion and hope. He’s weeding (and is still) out the things in my life that crowd me out. He’s given me his loving care throughout my life, and I am feeling the buds of a new season beginning. I like it.
So stay tuned…I’ve got a lot going on in the next couple months and I want to be more intentional about blogging it because I want you to be a part of what God is doing!