So, I have had a few days to process my Monday, because I needed it. First of all, let me just throw out there, I am 30% done with my first quarter! Okay, now on to the real business….
So – my Focused Lives class has not been my favorite, as I have mentioned a few times. However, I do love the group work that we do in the class. This Monday, in our group, we were going over some things that we had been learning from our reading so far. We were sharing what God had been pressing upon us from the lives of the people are teacher wrote about in his books. One of the people we were discussing is A.J. Gordon (of Gordon-Conwell, as well as many other things) and how God used his life to speak to us. Something that was being taught to me was being satisfied with what was in the next step, not being obsessed with seeing the big picture. This is hard for me because I feel like I am at the start of my ministry and I feel like I have a good grasp on where things are going, but I just want to get there. Also, some people have given me some really strong words of prophecy about me as well as my ministry and I want to see those happen. A.J. Gordon accomplished some BIG things in his life, yet God never showed him the big picture. He always got what he was supposed to accomplish next, and that was about it. But I just don’t think that works for me.
So I am sharing this with my group (who is made up of all women in various ages and races, which I LOVE) and we all get a turn to share. It is nice because a few of the women are more in the latter end of their ministry, so I felt like they were able to speak some real words of wisdom to me, since I am on the opposite end.
After class, one of the older women in my group, Carrie, asked if she could pull me aside and talk to me for a few minutes. Of course I am thinking, “Great, I totally offended her with my comments. I was too forceful and I hurt her feelings and she wants to take the young one down a few pegs.” But instead, she says, “I want to tell you what the Spirit was telling me about you while you were talking.” Of course, I want to hear, and she proceeds to tell me ALL these great and wonderful things. I think I am going to bullet them because its going to be easier 🙂
– She saw me speaking in front of multitudes of people (interesting word choice in “multitudes” but she repeatedly used specific that word)
– I have a very strong anointing from the Holy Spirit, which she said was VERY powerful when I speak in front of the multitudes.
– She saw me speaking to “seas of Dark-skinned people”, and knew right away that it was Africa.
– She heard lots of African countries, but specifically Nigeria and Ghana.
– She saw me speaking in front of these multitudes and being able to recognize what was ailing these people and how to release them from it (which was SO confirmation because I just got a word about a ministry of releasing this summer from someone)
– She said that Fuller is totally a part of the path that God has set before me and sees me growing a lot.
I think that covers it. It is always so hard to remember what people are speaking over you, because you are trying to listen! But all in all, I really feel so confident in what she was saying. It totally was a confirmation to me about being on God’s path and knowing that he does have big plans and a purpose for me. It was just really a powerful moment for me, knowing that I am really seeking after what God wants and feeling like he is confirming that in me. I also think it’s hysterical that he is using my least favorite class to talk to me in 🙂
He sure is a funny God, but he is so full of love as well.