Reflections on motherhood after 2.5 weeks

Okay – so I know it’s only been two and a half weeks, but I have some things to reflect on from motherhood already, and I think this will be an ongoing list…but here’s the start:

1. It’s amazing how much newborns change in 2 weeks. I know people say that, but looking at pics of Eli from the hospital to pics of Eli now, it’s like a totally different looking kid.

2. There are good days and bad days. Furthermore, there are good hours and there are bad hours. The good hours are so fun. The bad hours REALLY suck.

3. Eli seriously can smell me. I mean…I can smell me. (see number 4) but its amazing how he calms down when he smells me.

4. I now understand how a shower seriously becomes “me time” because I don’t have something attached to me, and raising my internal body temp in turn raising my stank levels.

5. It really is possible to feel like a cow when your child milks you once an hour.

6. Growth spurts = cranky spurts

7. I can’t beat myself up for not fitting into my pre-pregnancy clothes, even though I’ve already lost all the pregnancy weight.

8. Sometimes, I just need other women to tell me that it gets easier.

9. I really wish Eli could talk sometimes and tell me what he’s thinking. Especially when he’s making the funny faces…or dreaming…both of which he does often.

10. I am SO thrilled that I don’t have to do this alone. I pray for single parents around the world, because this is hardly possible at times with two people. I can’t imagine doing it alone.

I know that a lot of these so far seem negative. And frankly, today’s been a crappy day. Eli is going through a growth spurt, which as I said, translates to cranky crankster and eating once an hour and seriously NOT sleeping for longer than 45 minutes during the day. But the days that are good really are SO good. He had some great tummy time this morning that was absolutely adorable! I love him so much, even when I can’t even will him to sleep. Hopefully he’ll get back to his cute loving self soon!