There are days where I still can’t believe that I am actually pregnant. I think part of that is that I still haven’t told anyone! But we’re counting down the days until Thanksgiving when we can finally tell our families. It’s been really hard because I am not the best secret keeper. But I am hoping writing things out will help me! I can’t wait until I can actually post these blogs! 🙂
This week, I’ve really tried to let go of some anxiety. I am not the most chill person when it comes to certain things, and apparently, pregnancy is one of those things. I’ve just got a lot of anxiety surrounding the whole thing. I am counting down the days until I have my first ultrasound so we can see the baby’s heartbeat. Everyone (blogs really) say that it’s much more real when you get to that point. But this week, I’ve realized that there really is nothing I can do to make this go any faster or any better, but let go of the stress…which isn’t easy. So I am trying to focus on the happy and the fun parts of thiss whole process. I’ve finally allowed myself to start processing through how I am going to tell people! And let me tell you – I LOVE coming up with fun ideas on how to tell people! We’ve come up with a great way to tell our families and I am super excited to see their expressions this Thursday! I will say, it’s going to be really weird to actually voice the words, “I’m pregnant!” I’ve only said them aloud to two people really, so I hope I can actually get the words out.
How big is the baby?
I’ve been enjoying reading posts on how my body is changing and how the baby is growing. This week, it’s the size of a RASPBERRY! Tonight at church, they served dinner and someone brought an amazing fruit trifle that had raspberries in it. Seeing that little fruit really brought it home for me. It’s the start of winter so berries are pretty scarce, but I put a raspberry on my plate, and as calmly as I could walked over to Seth. “Look…this is the size of our baby!” It was really a cute and sweet moment between us!
What I’m eating
I am still into mushy foods. For some reason, crunchy things are just so repulsive to me right now! It’s also amazing how some of your favorite things just DON’T sound good at all. The thought of eating a runny egg just sends me realing. And I was really disappointed because last Sunday (week 7), I went into my favorite coffee shop and ordered my favorite drink (a pumpkin chai…yes, decaf) and I just couldn’t finish it. I am pretty much loving peanut butter and jelly sandwiches and I am hoping that when the baby is a couple years old, I haven’t repulsed them from PB&J as mom drove me away from pickles during her pregnancy.
I am also pretty grossed out by meat lately. I am not sure how Thanksgiving dinner is going to work out next week, but luckily, we’re telling our family for breakfast, so if I need help making some of the stuff because it grosses me out, grammy will be there.
How I’m feeling
The idea of “morning sickness” is really a misnomer, because usually, I feel pretty okay in the morning, but it’s the evenings that get me. Usually around 4pm I start to feel a little queasy. I have yet to actually hurl, but there have been a few times that I have come too close for comfort, especially as the night wears on. I went and got some sea bands this week and they really have helped. I pretty much wear them anytime I am eating as well as from about 4pm to 10pm. I haven’t needed them when I sleep, mostly because I just make Sethy press on my wrists until I fall asleep.
Sleeping is a whole other topic too. I think my body is starting to prepare me for a lack of sleep because I just have a horrible time sleeping! I heard from a friend that a body pillow is the way to go, so I went and got one last night. It pretty much takes up our entire bed, but it did help a little. I am also exhausted. I mean, I thought I knew what tiredness was before pregnancy, but I was seriously mistaken. I feel like I am constantly tired and need a nap to make it through the day. Every weekend day, I take advantage of the nap as best I can, especially since I am waking up by like 7 every morning and not able to get back to sleep.